Longtime goodbye

I found you years ago and fell in love at once. You still haven´t found me and time is running out, I´ve spent thousands of nights with the others only waiting for you to come and save me. But it seems I´m banned to live with fakeplastic love and fear for someone to find out. I keep dreaming the same dream in which I´m shining without you and without everybody else too. In the end I´m crying though, because I killed everyone who loved me.